For my whole life

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For my whole life I have thought of this moment:

When it would come, how it would happen...
It is my fate, so inevitable and inescapable.
I’ve always known it would come.
I’ve always been prepared,
But I never realized how much it would hurt him.

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He can be like a child, when lost and fragile.
A man so strong, yet so weak.
I knew him so; I did not want to let him go.
The pain I would leave him would scar him.
The regret I would give him would burden him.
My decision would break him.

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As I sunk deeper into the darkness,
I saw much sadness in his eyes.
The sight pained me much; I never saw him as such.
I wanted to reach out to him.
I wanted to let him know that I was okay.
But he would never know of my presence.

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“I’ll come back when it’s all over.” I had told him.
But I would never return; it was only later that he would learn:
We would never be together again.

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I never got to “meet” him,
I never got the chance to tell him how I feel,
But the memories we had together are enough for me.

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For my whole life I have thought of this moment:
When it would come, how it would happen...
It is my fate, so inevitable and inescapable.

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I’ve always known it would come.
I’ve always be prepared.
But I never realized how much I loved him – until I was gone.

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Tribute to Aerith.